Alone and Deppresed

     Mom was supposed to take me to Tennessee this weekend. She was going to visit some family because they were giving us a car. It wasn't until Wednesday, over a week since she told me I could go, that I wasn't going. So I spent the weekend with my step-dad. That's okay. Why would I want to spend the entire weekend with her. I'd just be miserable anyway. Who cares about spending time with their mom. I certainly don't. Anyway, I got to drive all weekend. Hopefully I'll have my licences before this summer. Then I will just get a job. Whatev's I don't care anymore. Me and my boyfriend worked things out. It isn't the same relationship we had before but it's close. I just wish it wouldn't have happened but it did and there's no turning back to avoid it. Gtg, write soon.

Love,

LonleySoul

Sadness and heartbreak

I can't believe it! He looked dead at me and just walked away! We were supposed to talk but instead he just kept walking! How am i supposed to fix a relationship when he doesn't want to put in effort???????? I can't keep doing this to myself. I do not deserve this, I just don't understand why he doesn't love me like I love him! The least he could do is tell me it's not working out! It just keeps dragging on and on and on. If he won't talk to me then how are we in a relationship? I'm so done. I can't do this anymore but every time I think about ending it I cry. I love him to much to even think about ending it. But he doesn't love me back .It just isn't working anymore!

heartache and Speechless

I meant to say we need to talk. I really did. There were just so many people around and I wasn't expecting to see him here and I lost the words and before I could recompose myself he left. Without saying anything. I can't keep doing this. I need to talk to him and I'm to scared to. I don't want to break up but at this point I don't know what else to do! My heart is still racing. It's like that every time I see him. I don't think he feels the same way. Until Later.

Love

LonleySoul

Messed up and broken

Right now I'm sitting at the school's library avoiding seeing my mom because I don't want to talk to her. My boyfriend is still refusing to converse with me like the almost adults we are. This has been going on for a week now. What did I do wrong. Babe I know I'm broken and sometimes not the best girlfriend, but I'm trying so hard. I just wish he would talk to me. I need to know where we stand in our relationship. Are we even going to be in a relationship anymore? I just want to know. The uncertainty of all my relationships makes me question why I'm even alive. I just don't understand where we are anymore. Anyway school sucks and I watch happy couples and friends everywhere. Whenever I go out with my friend I see happy mothers and daughters. I just wish I could have normal relationships but I guess my dad ruined that for me. By the way if your ever here me refer to someone named Adam, I'm referring to my biological father who abandoned me when I was seven. Whatever, I'm messed up, broken and not good enough. Anyway promise to write soon.

Love

LonleySoul

This is me by the way

Intro

Hi there! If you're reading this I assume you are having serious relationship issues or you're totally bored and have nothing better to do than listen to a teen girl rant to strangers. Anyway, I have serious relationship issues. No not just boyfriend girlfriend issues. Mom issues, dad issues, friend issues and so on. I apologize in advance if my rants seem excessive or boring. However, there is no one I can truly trust more than strangers who don't know me. This way I know my name isn't getting thrown around with some rumors. I promise to write soon.

Love,

LonleySoul